Where has all the time went?

Sighs. I cant replicate what I typed just now before its gone.

Just wanna say that I am reminiscing.

Life is running for me. Its running fast. Wait for me!

Love Nest

Dearest Baby! Next week is D day! Everything still feels very surreal. It also seems far away to me still... The house is almost ready though it lacked our personal touch as we have not yet got our hands into the decor of the house but I'm sure it is something that we will pour our spirit in, after the wedding!

It's quite eventful although I'm whiney and complainy everyday. Sighs. I can't bear to think of what's is going to happen on that day... Hopefully everything goes well and it also means that I really have to sit down and really think through what should I do on that day, detailing our every hour....

Anticipation....

Wheeeeeeeeeee! He proposed! He waited for a long while and many preparations and he popped the question! Its a nice, cozy and memorable evening and I thank everyone present to witness this special moment in my life.

Looking back

I revisited my blog and my old thoughts and my wish list on the right. I realised that I have achieved the business part and the apartment. And the 2 others are easily done now. I'm proud of myself to have achieved these with all the items in mind that many many years ago.....

And I realised that my heart leads me all these years! Albeit it took me many many years but slowly, I achieved! Hehe... Now it's to re set my wish list and go faster in my pace to achieve it! Muacks!!

7th letter

Dearest Baby,

How have your day been? I realised that we have not been talking much about ourselves except for work during the weekdays :( its a far far cry from our spontaneous days of driving to ECP, drinking our chardonnay and watching the stars or the planes fly by.. sighs...

I hope you made sure everything that we didnt enjoy today is well worth it for our tomorrow. Same goes for me...

I cant wait for our trips to overseas. Today I heard the girls are going to US and UK... I feel so upset sometimes that I couldnt afford the trips like them... Hopefully one day I could go and see the world like what I really really wanted... Have I told you already that I really like to go on trips with you, minus the physical torture if there is no enough rest. Cos I feel that its like an unknown adventure for the both of us and creates a lot of wonderful memories! Hopefully we are leaving real real soon for our trips! Can't wait.

Love,
Larel

5th Letter. To a great Start

Dear Baby,

You wanted to read this and I wanted to write you this. I decided to rush back after our wickedly good time to write you this. Also, another significant thing is to start writing you my unfinished letters on Valentine's Day - a day filled with celebration of love.

Although our relationship is no longer like those initial few months that we will do crazy mad things spontaneously; it has matured to a comfortable level that we can still do our own little things, in our own space and yet feel connected at the same time. I would like to think that you feel the same way too.

Lunch, museum, high tea at TWG and then Wicked the musical was fantastic. I like how we spent the day because it feels nice and cozy. Hopefully our future days to come will all be such nice, comfortable and cozy together. Most importantly, we musn't lose the fizz in our lives. May I continue to add colours to your life too. I love you.

Its November before I realise it

One year one update. Great.

News Bulletin: I have grown older by a year. Great news is that I didn't die. Bad news is that I did something that is deemed not good by others yet I didnt find the courage to undo.

Everyone NEEDS money

What is your belief when it comes to money? Personally, I feel that everyone NEEDS money. Whoever can survive without money in today's world? Well, unless you dun mind being unkept, no clean toilets to use, no clean chlorine filled water as well as good food, a roof over your head to sleep? So no bullshit, everyone NEEDS money.

So how can money be earned or owned? One: Work, Two: your own Business (er but u still work), Third: for those lucky ones - inheritance (but hey, unless u spend prudently, your inheritance is going to finish one of these days)

So, I belong to category One or Two person - Work to have money. So what you do with your money after you have it. Spend it all! Many people will think that I'm out of my mind.

BUT its true!

Its just a matter of time when you spend it. Save you say... but save for WHAT? Housing, family, emergency funds, kids education, car and Retirement.

Excuse me, which one of the above items you need not spend money on? So essentially you need to learn how to preserve your money better so that you can spend it longer! Duh!

Honestly, who still puts your money in the banks to save? In Singapore? I think everyone. Many people when they face with the word "INVEST", it seems such a repulsive word that they will shun. For the younger generation (I mean those till age 30, especially ladies) I feel that they are super pathetic. They have NO idea what to plan for themselves NOR do they want to plan ahead for themselves, people seem to think that saving is the way to go. Saving in a bank! Duh!

Up till a few years back, I am still one of those pathetic beings that think that savings is the way to go and never once thought about my retirement or my future. And by then I knew about it, I'm in my mid twenties.... a quarter century old. How much time do I have left? I think its a good 50 years only, presuming that I have good health... if not... hospital bills will simply dash my hopes of having any good or sustainable retirement. Then who to depend? Your kids? Your family?

HELLO! Stop Dreaming there! If you are already struggling with your finances now, its only going to get worse and worse ok!

In order for you to stop burdening your family, you got to find a way to preserve your money and stop it from leaking away to the inflation monster. AND for those who understand my previous paragraphs, I'm pretty sure at this point in time, you would have started to google for different ways to earn some little interests on your monies. These little interests that you could earn is called INVESTMENTS~

So how repulsive can the word be when you NEED it?

Long Absence

Opps, I did it again. I neglected my poor blog space again...lol. Actually, this year is really quite interesting. I know myself better as a blue brained. I know what makes me tick. I've got personal growth, but my bank account... hmm... i've not been feeding it much! It looks still too hungry to me.

I'm really thankful that I have Garry to guide me along. Without him, I think for me to work in this career is really too tough. He's been there when I'm down, been there when I'm crying.... Been there when I'm exasperate and wont work.. He's like the nanny daddy.. haha.. to think that we are only a few years apart... I feel that I am so childish beside him and gwen... weird... now I know why I cant get married. How could I ever handle that?!

No matter what, I must do much more this year, there is still another 7 more months before I look into my cashier to see my reaps for this year, so I can still make a difference! Jiayou Jiayou!

Happy 2009!

Happy new year to all. Although 2008 for me ended on a wrong note (phone was stolen), I hope 2009 is a good and fruitful one for myself. I wish all u pple all the best in what ever you do and to friends, remember to date me =)

Auntie Attack!

I'm so upset! Yesterday, within 3 mins after I ended the phone call with my bf, an auntie pickpocketed my HTC diamond! =~~( Somemore in John Little store! And that store does not have the CCTV for some areas though....we can even have a good look at that auntie though she walked into the store after stealing from me, that *^#$(&%&%.

Police was called and I had to cross my fingers that she wont use the IC of my client (I just left my appointment!) to do something bad. Hai, what has Singapore become?! Prudent place for pickpockets. Although I know its my fault cos I didnt zip my small clutch. BUT hey, its small! And with me. I cant catch her in time! ARGH!

Stupid auntie threw my pouch in the nearby bin somemore. I think she wanted to use my SIM card cos I called initially and its off. Then I called 10 mins later and its ringing! and she wont pick up!

People i tell you ah, you better get your phone softwares to protect it so that u can trace ur phone again someday. I only know of such software after I was robbed! Sian, oh wells, new excuse to buy new phones. I hate that auntie!!!!!!!!!! 

String of Holidays

Been having a holidaying month! Back from HK for a week and off I go to Taiwan for another week. I will let the pics do the job. Taiwan. Wulai Hot Springs

Lover's Bridge

He insisted on making the pose

1, 2, 3.....

Food we ate...

Our cozy Space

Airport at 6am

Work Reluctance

Hmmm... I dun feel like working. And no, it had nothing to do with the bear market or the financial market now. Its just that I want to laze around and do nothing. But apparantly, its very hard to do so. I am still constantly worried about my work and am worried with my income etc etc. Stupid me.

Well, tml is starting work time again. But then it unsettles me. I feel lost and reluctance to work is like friction across a super rough sandpaper, dragging me, causing me bleeding all inside - all torn.

AIA in hot soup but good times for investment!!!!!

Hmm... Interestingly, this is first time that insurance company comes close to winding up. But if it really goes down, who will ever believe in insurance?

In actual fact, insurance side of AIG shouldnt had made any losses unless they didnt buy insurance for themselves or got too greedy and forgot to hedge against their investment which are both big no-nos in the financial world. Anyways, I'm sure they will be able to tide themselves over with help esp from FEB. Oh wells, I just have to get my capital and here I come!!!!!! I shall buy more more lol. This is even more exciting than lucky draw!

Lies

U said that I was ur top priority in everything, what happened to that? I should have guessed it. You were young when u said that. Things change, especially quickly for guys. How should I have committment in me? How is that possible when there is no assured given to me regarding u not changing?

I'm worried. It makes my belief in staying single stronger. I cant be married at all....

Twilight

I'm occupied these days, after the mad rush for my thesis, cursing and swearing but still managed to pull through. I'm reading at an astonish speed, to finish up Twilight, a book about vampire and human romance by Stephenie Meyers. I feel that reading romance from a woman writer is so much more feelings than that written from a man, in general....Nicholas Sparks aside.

I remember that the first time I ever read a book....ever.....out of my own will was a condensed version of Nicholas Sparks' The Notebook. It was a lovely classic that spun sad romance and it really could make me cry. I'm surprised because young as I was, I've never thought that romance is so touching or rather words could be so touching. It was then, that i fell in love with words, writing my diary DAILY... omg... I wonder where I found the time. But writing a diary daily is very VERY fun. When I re-read what I have written then, I found that I have a lot of things to write everyday, a lot of thoughts, mostly childish but its funny to read what bothered me then and what are my opinions about them. Haha.

I remember tellling myself that one day, if I'm totally so in love with someone, upon my deathbed, I would let the person read my entire life and then let him feel what i felt just before i'm gone. Sounds weird huh... but yea, i do keep secrets and I dun like sharing. Bleah!

Anyways, I'm going to read on the sequel --New moon! So excited!

I miss...

I miss the new year's last year when we got a chalet at changi sailing club, for a week, away from all the noise and all the stress from work. This year, in particular, i'm facing a difficult time at work cos of career switch and I had to do a lot of sales. Sometimes I thought, probably it will be easier just working for others. But no. I wont want to be a worker the rest of my life! Instead of helping others to earn money, why not help myself to earn that money?

Still, I wanna enjoy and take a break, holidaying overseas is what i look forward most and working my ass off for... Sigh....

I realised that someone younger but has higher craving for success is earning much more than i did! And that is so stupid of me to still be stuck in my own comfort zone! Argh. Worse thing is that she is working in a job that i worked previously. Haiz. I'm so ashamed to say that I am not even earning 4-5 k a month. She owns branded bags, me? none to my name.

However, I know what i must do to achieve what I want to do this year. The first thing starts with me finishing my thesis! Gosh. She has so high inspirations! It inspires me, that's why i like to read people's blogs. They are quite inspiring sometimes.

World is as big as you see it, as small as you see it

Hmmm, whenever you do not want to find that something, that something or somebody will always pop up in front of you. Or should I say that my antenna is very sensitive? Why is it that I always will bump into her somewhere.. somemore, we are complete strangers. That is a comedy.

At times like this, when we quarrel with each other, negative thoughts of me leaving him will always set in. I know that to some extent, I am selfish. I am unwilling to let go of protecting myself, unwilling to let him take care of me as I cant feel that he has the capabilities to take care of me, to love me unconditionally. Seems like everything is all about me and me and me. I dont like to quarrel with him. He does not understand that during quarrels, leaving me some space will make me miss him, make me think about him, make me think though of what has happened. In relationship, I have just simply isolated any problems and never solving it truly. hmmm.... Probably I've grown tired of problem solving? Everytime I am unhappy, I'll talk to or look for someone else who will not make me unhappy and this is unhealthy as this is known as running away from reality. Karen commented yesterday that I am an idealist. I think of everything in life as so wonderful, so ideal. However, isnt life so?-----IF you work hard for it. Probably life is like what she hinted, to be so harsh most of the time. Sad. I miss Timothy's jokes as he always will say it with so much enthusiasism that when I always laugh at the corny joke, most of the time it is because of the way he says it. Hopefully he does not face the same problem as I face.

Coincidentally, we are both watching the same Taiwanese Drama Series and he commented that his personality seems to be similar to that guy and they are facing the same problem. Well, I dont feel so leh. Firstly, Ethan's MINE!!!! haha Ethan's the male main actor. He is so soo SOOOOoo good looking that I like it, especially the way he sleeps, looks like baby eh. And well, Ethan has a lot a lot of compassionate and passion for his love, unlike that Timothy. Hai, to think that he actually told his wife that their marriage is a mistake. I was like, " WHAT?!?! You actually said that?!?!?!?!" Aiyo, I mean ur wife leh, how could he say that to her. If my hubby say that to me, I will be so upset that I will go for divorce settlement the next day. Hai... Some people just dont appreciate people around them.

The next BIG thing on my head is my business. Scratch head leh. Business is in bad shape. I need to use brain to think more so that I can make business work. I need more networking and meet more people. Now so looking forward to the trip to Phuket lah. Phuket, HEre I Come!!!!!

P.S. Hopefully someday, my prince will come and whisk me away to places that I want to visit and make me the happiest princess in the world. I wish...

End of Schooling

FINALLY! Its the end of my schooling days. I reaching the end... soon soon..... Thesis left to go.
I finished off the last paper yesterday. It wasnt exactly a relief cos I never really prepared well for it, oh wells, its OVER!!

Today, I'm officially back to office. Life was hectic as usual but I seem to have lost some skills along the way. Gonna brush them up soon. Today I am so proud of myself. I am not late for BFC! And was there like 15 mins earlier =) happy! But I dun think i accomplished much today. Must schedule my time better again. Monday, need ta discuss MDRT running with Garry again. Looking forward to see how am I going to run everyday.

Today, for calling, I missed out the chance to go and see Chloe's (Joejoe's sis) new apartment in the East. She's getting married soon.... haiz... everyone around me seems to get into marriage mood thesedays. I've got like 2 bombs this yr already. But having said that, I am in no rush to get myself hitched, cos I need luxury in my life, so I'm working my ass off, in the hope that I am able to get a nice apartment of my choice, breezy, with big windows, all the way down from ceiling... gosh... I can so picture myself dwelling in such a beautiful place that i can call my own. I cant wait for that day!

There is so much going on recently. On Mother's day, I went celebrating and had lunch with family then had Chloe's banquet's food tasting at night. It is a good food day la! I had such a stuffed stomach that I suspect I'm getting indigestion. Yummy Yum Yum! On the actual banquet day itself, I think that I am not going to sit with da BF. I dun think it is appropriate for me to sit in the VIP table, dun belong to their family you know.... like that pple's tongues will wag. Dun like. I think I will sit with his aunt.

Talking of which, the aunt is not in good health recently. Wonder what is wrong with her constitute. She seemed healthy and she eats healthy food. A vegetarian. And the food at her restaurant, makes me wanna go eat again.. *slurps* I miss her "fried eggs". Yea, but the sad thing is that the shield plan that she got previously was plan B and that does not offer good coverage, so she had to fork out money for her hospitalization as well. There is nothing much that we can do at this moment cos she is sick and even if we help her to upgrade, it wont do her any good at this moment. Haiz, it is usually such case that I feel that it is such a pity cos few months back, we did try to ask her to upgrade but she thinks that the coverage is enough. HAIZ....

I realise that my blog has very little pics eh. I dun really take pics now a days cos dun like to put make up and my nude face looks super pale, so in order not to scare anyone, better hide the pics away. My phone ringing component spoil le.... =( I guess I dropped it all too often. HAIZ HAI HAIZ.

So upsetting. I am so gonna go read mag le. HUMPH.

Desires

I want to go Taiwan & Japan!

I want a camera =(

I want a ring coz bvlgari one looks nice.

I want a toy poodle cos look like teddy.

I want you to hug me to sleep every night.

I want you to bring the smile to my face when i'm down.

I want to run to you for every little problem.

I want to be free to do whatever I want everyday.

I want to be rich.

I want assets.

I want my own spa.

I want my own nail salon.

I want my own food place.

I want our own wine place.

I want you to be happy and free like me.

I want us to be happy without quarrels together.

I want to travel the world.

I want to fly first class everywhere.

I want to be tipsy with you.

I want to be able to snuggle in bed whenever I feel like it.

I want to be forever young.

I want to be able to be a child forever.

I want a never ending wish list.

For that, i'll use my gift -- my brains to realise all the wants I have.

Thoughts

Been reading rich dad, poor dad. Really like that book. It is a mind opener and makes me believe that I can learn how to be rich. I really want to be rich but at the same time not blinded by what money can buy.

I really do not want to get stuck in the rat race and find myself waiting for paychecks to foot yet bigger debts. No way! Do not want that to happen to me.

We chatted about our future. I communicated to him clearly that i really want to be successful one day. I want to live comfortably, financially free. I really want that for my future. Yet I know that it hurts him when i admit that i cant see my future with him yet. I'm really sorry for any hurt and grief but I've yet to find it suitable for us to settle down although deep down i really want to settle down with someone I love and live everyday happily.

Happiness is really hard. Simple yet hard to get. I'm trying. Still trying.

Nevertheless, i still love you. May not love you so deep yet but i may have the whole life ahead of me to love u deeper and deeper. Dont you agree?

My beliefs

I believe we are who we want to be.
I believe that I can be better.
I can do better.
I believe that I can lead the life that I want, as long as I am hunger enough with the desire.
I want.

Men, Boys, Guys, they are all the same, no?

I remember that u once told me not to compare u with all those guys out there but u r slowly becoming like them --- insensitive, not bothered, demanding, stubborn...
What happened?

U know sometimes, I just hope that you'll surprise me with something sweet like a sweet gift or a small surprise. I may be asking for a lot... but I am still hoping. I didnt really want to write all these in my blog cos I know that you'll read but I need somewhere to vent my sadness and somehow, some part of me hopes that you'll read my thoughts aloud and digest what i've been saying to you all these while. I know that u r busy with studies and all but I feel so invisible in front of u. Prob the fishes got more attention than me now. I'm upset by ur lack in caring.

But on another note, i know that I've not been a good gf to you. What is the secret to find happiness? There is not much events going on in my life. We dont go out that often to play and solely play without a care for time. Since when is the last time we ever went out with the sole purpose to play and relax the whole day? That memory seems non-existent. U say that I would forget easily abt the things that we do. Yes, i do forget easily, cos happiness always seem to be erased by unhappiness. Just a simple gesture will make me happy. I seriously dun remember the last time you came up to me to give me a hug while I'm doing something. The only times I remember u'll initiate hugs are when u say goodbyes to me.

Goodbye hugs.

Hugs dun mean to be like that only. Maybe we are seeing each other too much. I remember that u once said that u cant do things (i forgot what things) cos we are seeing each other too much and take up a lot of ur time. My reply is simple -- if u cant seem to find time to do things like these, it would only mean that ultimately, when u stay with that person as ur spouse, u would lose the ability to shower the person with gifts, love, care, attention, no? I dont want us to end up like that one day, that's why i always rather choose to leave because I know that all these are traits of men.

So far, not one man managed to change my view on this. I thought you might be the first, but seems not....

U always say that I only want to do my own things. Everytime we go out, its doing 'my' things, like shopping and shopping. U dont like it but u nv suggested any other things except going to sentosa. I like to go there in a group cos its more fun and spontaneous but u nv understood cos we are too introvert and nv really mixed with any friends since we got together. I missed my single days when I party like no tomorrow. I missed parties. I missed laughing till i've got sore throat.

U'll ask, "are they really ur true friends?"

Seriously, I dunno, but I really hope they are. Am I too silly?

Being in love doesnt mean no friends. I would want to spend time with friends too, like siqiang to go sentosa (yeah, she likes tanning too but I know that if i asked her along only, she'll not like to play gooseberry), spend time with Rese, though i know that I cant count on her but I like her company. I really have little friends. Sadness. I know that u'll let me go out with them but i always can sense ur unhappiness over the phone when u call while i go out with them, urging me to go home soon, go home soon. I get these phobia when I'm out with friends -- phobia of ur calls.

Haiz, I'm verbal vomitting... whatever, i shall sleep it off.

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

I read this quote while I was at Popular with Joel and Hwee Bing today. Joel was sprawling across the quotes section, wanting to get some quote to inspire himself as well as his clients. This quote got stuck in my head. I think that this quote is simple yet powerful to me.

Indeed, one of my worst weakness is failure to plan ahead. I like to do things ad hoc. In the end, reflecting at my past 23 years of life, I think that I could have achieved more if I had planned my everyday and not only for my exams =P (Yea, I do plan for my exams ok!) But, like what the finexians would say -- it does not matter what is the past 20 years, what matters is the next 20 years. Yep! True. So from today onwards, I shall adopt the system of planning ahead and reflection which I would do whenever I come online to write something.

Alright, after the boring topic of my reflection, more about my life. Life had been work work work most of the time and my baby had complained that I used to write more about him. Now, nothing much abt him... tsk tsk tsk... that baby likes limelight! Ahem... Fine. I shall write about him.

Firstly, BABY, PLS GO GET A BLOG!!!! I WANNA SEE WHAT U WILL WRITE IN IT!

Secondly, thanks for helping me pass my cheque to sch today, in order to prevent me from being expelled from my course due to late payment of fees (WTF!!! That's what it is like to be in private institute)

Thirdly, I wanna go shopping. When?

Fourth, baby, study hard! Last 2 years nia~ Kanbatte!

Lastly, I wanna spill some beans about that baby of mine -- his name was spelt as Lin Xiaohan JOEL on the production board. LOL. Since when his name changed? Where's ur deed poll, baby? Oh and girls and aunties and previously, uncles think that he is cute... (ERMMmmmm....) yea, some funny people out there. I cant tell the difference but obviously my baby is so happy with himself when I told him about people's comments. (What-ever~) That actually means that I would want to morph myself into a prettier person than him. He's getting all the attention!!! (ok baby, $1000 ah, for promoting u so much here, wahahaha)

A Chat.

After the chat with my Manager, I am really happy that I chose to leave my job or rather all the jobs out there and decide to fight for my own career. I'm blessed. My parents do not need to depend on me for money or anything, YET. But I can forsee that soon, one day, my parents can no longer work and they should be enjoying. HOWEVER, my parents had given their all to the four of us that they didnt do anything for their retirement. I've seen my dad's CPF funds. Its definitely not enough for the two of them to retire... but I couldnt possibly break my dear daddy's heart by telling him. SO the next best solution is for the four of us to be their to fund their retirement, esp with my mum's future travelling. I forsee that I need millions set aside for them as well as myself.

Working as a financial consultant helps me a lot as it gives a lot of insight about how money can really work hard for a person. In the past, parents are forever saying that working hard and earning money is the only way to make sure that you have enough to live BUT now, everyone has to live, pay for children, pay for parents and own retirement. Can u see how big that kind of responsibility is? If anything happens to you along the way how? Life still has to go on for the others, but if u dont get urself well covered, then its the others who has to bear the burden of ur own responsibilities.

My dream is to able to retire early and I'll earn my own income by being an investor but that means that I need huge amt of capital in order to achieve what I desire. Seems difficult but I'm sure that I can work hard and achieve it.

Garry told me that I can achieve MDRT in 4 months if I work hard and I'm choosing to believe him. I will concentrate to finish the last of my studies and then I will go on and achieve MDRT! All in this year! Yeah I want I want!

Reminisce

I found some of my old diaries. Took a peek into my sec sch life. Life was simple, time was ample and pleasures of life, so easy. I realise that I had forgotten how to enjoy the simple pleasures of life, even if it is just to be happy about life. Many times, I feel that I am constantly in a heated conversation or argument with that boy of mine. How I missed the time when everything seems like roses to me.

Comparing to now, I think I am currently walking on a bed of thorns. Since when have I locked happiness out of my life?! Gosh, I want the old me back! I want to be truly happy, even if it is to be eating something as simple as ice-cream or just watching the movies. I really need to stop for a bit and take time to enjoy what is around me.

Hai.... Growing up is not fun. Comes with freedom is more responsibility and more headaches, more heartaches, more worries and sad to say.... more white hair for me! ARGH... I cant believe it!!!! I have so many white hair... Right, I gotta sleep and relax already. When can I go to spa again?!

See what I mean?? I am ALWAYS worrying. I need to enjoy man! I am growing old too soon, too soon.

Seek and you shall find

Seek and you shall find. I always faithfully believe in this sentence whenever I'm lost. Today, I'm losing myself in the midst of the buzz of life again.


There is so much work to be done and so little time for all. I am learning to respect my time more and more. I believe that years on, when I look back at this little piece of me in time, I will laugh at my own foolishness. All that time takes, is just a blink of an eye......

Why?

Although I am richer than a poor student, why in the world am I not happier? I dont understand this. Is it because with money comes stress? or is it because I just simply forgot how to appreciate the simple pleasures in life? My view to happiness is obscured...

Sigh... Sigh.... Fancy quarrelling again over minute things such as where to pick up someone on V-day... I see no point... And unhappiness will always erase all previous happiness... Why, oh Why...

CNY

Nothing much better to do on New year I guess... so, after reunion dinner, and drumming session at Mengting's house, I'm back, in front of my pretty Mac and try to upload photos from the reunion dinner as well as MT's house.

Jen and I


Models of the Year

My Fairytale


MT and us

My try at photo editing

Updates about my 2008

Firstly, I think I am super passive for 2008. I have done nothing wonderful to usher in the new year. I feel that I am so distant from my friends. I started on a job that holds many uncertainty and I face it with all the courage I have and all the faith in hope that my efforts will pay off someday.

I started working in Finexis -- an independent financial advisory firm. BUT I'm always so mistaken for being a insurance agent... PISSING... well, cant they understand that I do tie up with insurers and the basis of financial freedom is planning and protection is what makes insurance! Not that I want to. Of cos i would gladly do other services for them but they dun even have a good solid foundation to protect their wealth, how to do any other things at this pt in time?

Many people told me that it is indeed a super tough road. I know that but I am doing my best... I hope to strive something out of this career and then grow wiser as I grow older. Like what Jack says --- Grow up! Don't just grow old!

2008 will be a year to test my relationship too. As I venture into this line, I have to do a lot of appointments, in the end, I may neglect Baby's needs and his feelings. Somehow, I feel that I have committment phobia. I can honestly say that I had not given my 100% feelings into the relationship yet. I have my reservations because I dunno what the future holds for me and I dare not find out. Probably, this is the reason that propelled my personality of being easily jealous, possessive and wanting to be in control.

Poor baby, sometimes, I do think that it is really ok if he wants out of the relationship as I know that I cant provide him what he needs emotionally yet...

Santa, Santa, grant me 3 wishes!

Ho Ho Ho! Christmas just went passed like that! Amist all that frantic preparation and a long long day, it started with a mini fun party and then ended with me working over the computer for my presentation tomorrow. My my... me and my time management... hmm....

I did something out of the norm yesterday -- i msged ALMOST everyone on my contacts, sending them my Christmas greetings. Many of them are happy to hear from me. Many are friends whom I had not contacted for years... opps... I guess my time zone is much slower eh... Well, at least I do msg them what!

Trainings early in the morning had made me slowly evolving into an early bird. I said SLOWLY! But I do enjoy waking up in the morning, driving around to Baby's, then make him drive us to work, rushing through breakfast, sometimes skipping breakfast and finally walk into office being so professional.... haha its so fun and nice. I like! Its like getting a headstart, though he'll not graduated until another 2 and a half years.. but it is nice having a partner at work and since we meet during work, he cannot complain I have no time for him, right? Muahaha.... (evil lala hatching evil plans)

But now since I'm just started in my job and I emptied my pocket to get my hands on this irresistable mac, I'm seriously broke. Need my baby to feed me le.... *opens my mouth* I'm sure he'll gladly push me away. 

Nah, I'll have my own ways to conjour money... I always have a knack for that! 

Ok, now, I have to start racking my brains over resolutions for next year. This time round, I finally feel that I can achieve my resolutions next year!! Happy and excited!!!